Archive for November, 2010

November 30, 2010

Failure.

Failure isn’t new to me.
In fact, it’s what I will amount to in life – or so I have been told.

I never complete anything.
Everything just gets too hard and I run away.

I have done it again.
Wanted to work in PR.
Enrolled in the course.
And now, I either have until 5pm to complete my “exam” [Aka 4 essays]
OR
Not do it.
And fail again.

And I have chosen the fail.
I don’t want to do it anymore.
I can’t.
I’m not up to it – I don’t have the time – or the desire.

But,
Thats not saying I have given up on study.
2011 is the start of something new.
I will be completing my certificate in Events Management.
It’s more managable than a Bachelor
And I am excited.

And when I do complete it, expect me to shove it back your face.

November 22, 2010

To be nine again…

As a kid I always thought about how amazing it was going to be to be an adult.
You had freedom,
You could do what you liked,
Spent what you liked,
Stay up all night and sleep all day.
You got to eat what you wanted and spend as much time with your friends as you wanted too and you were never scared of anything.

But now,
As an adult, I would LOVE to go back to being a kid for just a day.
Just one day to soak it all in and appreciate how easy life was.

As a kid you have freedom, you aren’t burdened with mortgage repayments, with studying, with work.

You could spend all your money on Spice Girls CD’s and lipgloss and even though you didn’t have much, what you did have was all yours – you didn’t have to worry about using it to pay for petrol, for utilities.

As a kid you literally could sleep all day – you might not have been allowed to, but there was the odd occasion you could vegetate all day on the couch, watching TV, playing gameboy and you didn’t have to still get up to mow the lawn or watch your kids.

Mum may not of let you eat pop-tarts for breakfast, but all those other things you ate, those special treats, the ice-cream you were allowed because you ate your broccoli – as an adult you can’t eat those things because of your sensitive teeth, your lactose intolerance or your waistline.

Time with your friends was limited. You could stay and play until it got dark, or until Dad came and picked you up after work – but what time you had, you had together. There was no scheduling months in advance, or having a quick drink between meetings, time was not of the essence and you had the energy to play all day.

As a kid those nightmares and christmas beetles may have scared the bejesus outta you – but some of those fears never go away, as a 23 year old I am still scared stiff of Christmas beetles, but those fears are so minor. As an adult you fear scarier things, things like failure, commitment and the feeling of having control over nothing.


So yes,
For just one day – I wish I was a kid again.
Skinned knees are easier to fix than a broken heart.
And cleaning spilled milk is easier to wipe than a bad credit rating.

November 12, 2010

Just another manic Friday?

Thursday evenings are usually spent getting manicures, shopping, or sitting at home chilling after a hectic day.

Occassionally it means a dinner/coffee date with a friend.
Last night, dinner turned into many, many coffees to keep up with the late night out.

Late night out, turned into an early morning of blog surfing because of the caffiene high.
4:30 this morning I was still watching the clock.

This was fabulous when my alarm went off at 5am.
Snooze was pressed countless times until it was 6am and I was forced out of bed to manage to make the commute and get to work on time.

My hair is naturally curly.
But, just like the mystery of my natural hair colour – most of you wouldn’t know it.
GHD and straightening balm are my best friends.

Well, this morning – my hair DID NOT want to co-operate.
No amount of blowdrying, dry shampoo, straightening or swearing worked.
No time to wash and re-set, I am sitting here with ridiculously dry, hideous hair.
Thank goodness for the hair ties I keep in my car.

November 7, 2010

one hundred movies.

1. The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
2. The Godfather (1972)
3. The Godfather: Part II (1974)
4. Inception (2010)
5. The Good, the Bad and the Ugly (1966)
6. Pulp Fiction (1994)
7. Schindler’s List (1993)
8. 12 Angry Men (1957)
9. 8.8 One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1975)
10. 8.8 The Dark Knight (2008)
11. 8.8 Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
12. 8.8 The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (2003)
13. 8.8 Seven Samurai (1954)
14. 8.7 Star Wars (1977)
15. 8.7 Goodfellas (1990)
16. 8.7 Casablanca (1942)
17. 8.7 Fight Club (1999)
18. 8.7 City of God (2002)
19. 8.7 The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
20. 8.7 Toy Story 3 (2010)
21. 8.7 Rear Window (1954)
22. 8.7 Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
23. 8.7 Once Upon a Time in the West (1968)
24. 8.7 Psycho (1960)
25. 8.7 The Usual Suspects (1995)
26. 8.7 The Matrix (1999)
27. 8.6 The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
28. 8.6 Se7en (1995)
29. 8.6 Memento (2000)
30. 8.6 It’s a Wonderful Life (1946)
31. 8.6 The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)
32. 8.6 Sunset Blvd. (1950)
33. 8.6 Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)
34. 8.6 Leon: The Professional (1994)
35. 8.6 Forrest Gump (1994)
36. 8.6 Citizen Kane (1941) 140,233
37. 8.6 Apocalypse Now (1979)
38. 8.6 North by Northwest (1959)
39. 8.5 American Beauty (1999)
40. 8.5 American History X (1998)
41. 8.5 Taxi Driver (1976)
42. 8.5 Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
43. 8.5 Vertigo (1958)
44. 8.5 Saving Private Ryan (1998)
45. 8.5 Amelie (2001)
46. 8.5 Alien (1979)
47. 8.5 WALL·E (2008)
48. 8.5 Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
49. 8.5 The Shining (1980)
50. 8.5 A Clockwork Orange (1971)
51. 8.5 Spirited Away (2001)
52. 8.5 Paths of Glory (1957)
53. 8.4 The Pianist (2002)
54. 8.4 To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
55. 8.4 Double Indemnity (1944)
56. 8.4 The Departed (2006)
57. 8.4 The Lives of Others (2006)
58. 8.4 M (1931)
59. 8.4 Aliens (1986)
60. 8.4 Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004
61. 8.4 City Lights (1931)
62. 8.4 Requiem for a Dream (2000)
63. 8.4 Das Boot (1981)
64. 8.4 The Third Man (1949)
65. 8.4 Chinatown (1974)
66. 8.4 L.A. Confidential (1997)
67. 8.4 Reservoir Dogs (1992)
68. 8.4 The Treasure of the Sierra Madre (1948)
69. 8.4 Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)
70. 8.4 Modern Times (1936)
71. 8.4 Pan’s Labyrinth (2006)
72. 8.4 Back to the Future (1985)
73. 8.4 The Prestige (2006)
74. 8.4 Life Is Beautiful (1997)
75. 8.3 Raging Bull (1980)
76. 8.3 The Bridge on the River Kwai (1957)
77. 8.3 Singin’ in the Rain (1952)
78. 8.3 Cinema Paradiso (1988)
79. 8.3 Some Like It Hot (1959)
80. 8.3 Rashômon (1950)
81. 8.3 Amadeus (1984)
82. 8.3 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
83. 8.3 All About Eve (1950)
84. 8.3 Inglourious Basterds (2009)
85. 8.3 Once Upon a Time in America (1984)
86. 8.3 Full Metal Jacket (1987)
87. 8.3 The Green Mile (1999)
88. 8.3 Braveheart (1995)
89. 8.3 The Great Dictator (1940)
90. 8.3 Downfall (2004)
91. 8.3 Up (2009)
92. 8.3 The Apartment (1960)
93. 8.3 Gran Torino (2008)
94. 8.3 Bicycle Thieves (1948)
95. 8.3 Metropolis (1927)
96. 8.3 The Maltese Falcon (1941)
97. 8.3 The Elephant Man (1980)
98. 8.3 Gladiator (2000)
99. 8.3 The Sting (1973)
100. 8.3 Sin City (2005)